Life is life. It comes with times of great joy, times of serenity and then what can feel like a season of loss. Some losses are swift, unforeseen body blows. Others are gradual - small bites taken one at a time, and then the sudden end. But all seasons pass.Gradually, veils lift. New seasons - reveling in a day of no loss and no anxiety about an impending loss. (I feel nothing but compassion for those who are hard-wired to see the next loss around every corner. I am not that; it is not my chemistry, and I am grateful beyond words for this).
Fun. I remember fun - from before this past season. Happily, this was a week for water fun. Spectacular weather; several days I got to the beach for a few late day hours - with a great book. The best of times. Decided to get to competence on my last remaining basic boating skill - dock the damn thing. I mean geez - stupid drunk people can dock a boat, children of 10 can dock a boat.... So out I went with a willing teacher (though I know she wishes she had brought some wine along). Hour and a half or so - docked the damn thing dozens of times. Got a "F"on my first try (though I thought that was a tad harsh - I think "F's" should be reserved for attempts that involve actual damage). Happily and proudly got to a "B". Though there is some chance she up-graded me to a "B" because she really needed to get off the boat and have that glass of wine - all teachers have tolerance limits, particularly with an incompetent yet stubborn student. Bad combination - inept and determined.
Then my kayaks were delivered. Postponed until after Irene - there is no sense adding projectiles to your possessions right before a hurricane. Went on the virgin trip on another spectacular day. Again, no damage to life, limb, kayak, dock or friend. Success.
Sudden Cardiac Arrest (SCA) is not fun; having a flipping defibrillator in your chest wall is not fun, waiting for it to shock the crap out of you is not fun, saying farewell to a beloved dog is not fun.
Today was fun. Lean into it.
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